Upside Down is not Right Side Up

Casually chilling on my balcony, looking into my neighbours backyard. Yes, I'm  a mad creeper. I should be doing an assignment. It's way hard. I don't know what to write about verbs, or how to make teaching verbs into an enjoyable lesson.Verbs hate me, I hate verbs. I hate lesson plans even more.

I was meant to stay up last night and work on it. Instead I play connect four with strangers, because I'm just that amazing. I want to do that right now. But this has to be done in the next 6 hours. I feel screwed. I'm not organised and it's horrible. I have absolutely no idea what to do with this thing.

Everything is topsy turvy and scattered. I don't know anything. I don't care about it either. I should, I really should. I feel like I'm dropping, I can't even tell. I put myself into a mood where I don't care and nothing matters at all and I know that can't be good.

I now have to finish this assignment, and hope that I pass because it means the difference between sitting this whole subject again or not. And I don't feel like doing it all again. Especially not this.

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I know I'm not broken

A little cracked

But still I'm not broken

I wanna laugh but I think that I'm choking on reality